My Favourites for this Season...

Seasons In The Sun

Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climbed hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees
Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun
we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed
Were just seasons out of time

Goodbye Papa please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along
Goodbye Papa it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them, I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song
Like the seasons have all gone
We had joy, we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song
Like the seasons have all gone

Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground
Goodbye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there


I Will Always Love You

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.


Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Un-do this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart, my heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Ohh, oh
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
(rpt Chorus except last line)

Un-break my
Un-break my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on


Back For Good

I guess now it's time for me to give up
I feel it's time
Got a picture of you beside me
Got your lipstick mark still on your coffee cup
Got a fist of pure emotion
Got a head of shattered dreams
Gotta leave it, gotta leave it all behind now

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

Unaware but underlined I figured out this story
It wasn't good
But in the corner of my mind I celebrated glory
But that was not to be
In the twist of separation you excelled at being free
Can't you find a little room inside for me

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

And we'll be together, this time is forever
We'll be fighting and forever we will be
So complete in our love
We will never be uncovered again

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didn't mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever I'm wrong just tell me the song and I'll sing it
You'll be right and understood

I guess now it's time, that you came back for good

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Just ranting...

Its funny (not sure if funny is the right word, but it'll do for want of a better word), how the smallest of things can bring back a rush of memories. How when you think the hurt is gone it'll all come back. Its like it all happened just yesterday and it hurts just so much.

Had just sat down for a couple of minutes after getting ready this morning, waiting for the cab to pick me up. My CD player isn't working so switched to radio city and they played one of my favourite songs from Silsila - Yeh kaha aagaya hum. Heard it? Its one hell of a song but has so many memories attached to it. Just listening to it brought back tears but then wasn't able to just get up and switch it off. Finally managed that when it was over but then its left me with thoughts for the day.

Thoughts of whose fault it all was, why me, what did I do to deserve this, maybe it was for the best but the reoccuring question why me???

Got into the cab and pulled out my book to read. Reading - thats my haven from life. Am reading The Dragon Reborn - Robert Jordan, its a part of a series and something like Lord of the Rings. Anyway my next clue for the day lay there. And was then wondering how sometimes answers lie in the absurdest of places. You find them where u least expect to find them. Wonder if they will make sense to anyone else but they did to me...
"Just because fate has chosen something for you instead of you choosing it for yourself doesn't mean it has to be bad. Even if it's something you are sure you would never have chosen in a hundred years. Better ten days of love than years of regretting."
They may mean nothing to anyone else but to me drowning then in my sea of misery it was a strand of straw. Saved or no, for now that is all I have.

I just life was a little easier on people. But somehow experience is what shapes your life, sometimes it hardens and builds walls. And then people wonder how you got to be so distanced, so hard, so uninvolved. I feel like telling them, hey you didn't go through that I did, these walls help, they keep people out and hurt out too.

Ok enough of my ranting away. Am gonna stop here and get back to work. Coz thats a great way to keep busy.

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Just writing...

A friend messaged yesterday to say why no updates on your blog so thought would just add a few lines so that its not too much of a gap between two updates ;-)

Life's been a roller coaster lately. Too many up and downs to even remember. Came back from my Coorg ride in Jan and the riding season was over as it was too hot. March saw me with back pain. It just kept getting worse till I went to a Doc and he said its muscle injury. He gave medcines and reccomended physio. Then in May went to this quack who solved it all in a couple of minutes and I was as good as new. Went on a short ride to Kanakpura to test my back and felt great as there was no pain. Riding was not over for me. But that was not the end. Next thing to follow was viral fever that lasted a week and a half.

Finally got over that and am still recovering. The appetite is still not back. Feel hungry but then when I see food its gone. Have lots of weight and now am just eating to put on some weight and stay alive I guess.

Life's taken a turn for the worse right now maybe it will get better sometime soon. Its like being pulled under water and struggling to get back to the top for air. Its a feeling of being closed in and losing it all. But wether all is lose yet or no is something to wait and see. Maybe, just maybe its still not lost.

Still have a little bit of the fight left in me, just have to find it. Am searching and hoping that will be soon...

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