Musafir and Faakira...

Someone just asked me why Faakira... here's my explanation...

When I named Musafir... it was about an idea, a way of life, a philosophy... It was about what I am passionate about... travel in the true sense... not about kilometers but about experience, about places and people...

Faakira is on the same lines... about leading a life of a faakir, of belonging to no one and no where... of being detached... of always being on the move... a simple life...

Something like that... very intangible... tried putting it in words... but its just a feeling, a philosophy... hope it makes some sense... :)

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So where am I headed?

Finally brought Faakira home... Rode her back all alone. Had hick-ups on the way with idling and all but was an awesome feeling... Kept a steady speed of 40 as was wee bit (read as shit ;) ) scared. Jaws and muscles all stiff with tension.
The feeling was awesome... the beat, the feel of power still there just beyond, an itch to push just a bit more... phah looks like am going the speed way too... gonna hit the track soon at this pace.
Did just 13km from Sam's place to Mine but it was really something in the rush hour. And ofcourse thanks to Sam for tolerating me and helping out with figuring how she would start :)
Ok thats it for now. My shoulders and leg still hurting with all that kicking. Am back to dreaming.
But still what a joy it was to see her outside when I woke up, starting her and then actually sat and polished a bit and cleaned up Musafir too for good measure. :D

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Life is short

Life is short, don't waste time worrying about what people think of you.
Hold on to ones who care, in the end they will be the only ones there.

Time for an update... so thought would start with the above lines. Found them the other day. lately have been finding so very old stuff, surprising what you would find when you start looking through the past :).

Life is quite an amazing thing... wonder if you can ever win against it... just when you think its all under control, it throws up a surprise... Its just crazy, couldn't it have been just a bit smooth...

Well what else... kinda busy with work and some training and not to forget my exams... haven't even got time to get my bike work done... anyway have some leave coming up to next week will be riding Faakira (God willing)...

Thats it then for now :)

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Aimless Wanderer...

Just feeling a little low today and writing helps so will just rattle away I guess. None of all thats follow may make sense. Just wondering where I have come from and where am going. Ever read The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost. Am just wondering about those roads today. Those options I had in life to walk different roads and I did take the road less travelled. It was fun and still is, but does it have to be filled with hardships, emotional rollercoasters. Couldn't the ordeals have been a little lighter.
Yeah I know I may have got a better deal then a lot of other people but that don't make my cross lighter.
I don't think I ever asked too much of life. Some happiness, a sprinkling of smiles, topped with love, packed in warmth. Just the usual. Actually somehow life always dealt the unexpected, learnt early that expectations lead to heart break, actually didn't learn. Still break my heart over small things.
But where am I headed from here... no idea... plans keep changing. Always thought I would settle down at some point, get married, have kids, do those typical things - set out days cloths for hubbly, tie the tie, wait for him to return, have chai ready, listen to him crib about work and boss... somehow all these little things felt so nice.
Dreamt of being pampered, loved to no end, little surprises, being swept of my feel with hugs and kisses, unexpected appearances, close dances, moonlit walks, movies together, silly hidden messages, secret whispers, saying it all and yet saying nothing, the joys of a new life, every whim fulfilled when the little ones on the way... So many dreams.
But the maybe am not that type. All of this is not for me. Am meant for other things. Its not for me to belong anywhere. I must leave and go on in body and mind, if for nothing else then to just answer that eternal question, Who and Why am I? Ever heard the closing lines of Mona Lisa Smile - "I've heard her called a quitter for leaving and aimless wanderer. But not all who wander are aimless, especially those who seek truth beyond traditions, beyond definition, beyond the image."

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Faakira Arrives...

Finally Faakira's here. Closed the deal on Friday and will get delivery today. Ah its been a long wait for her... Those days of dreaming and watching the old Bullet meri jaan ad. Back then dreams were more of the pillion type but then men failed me so now am the rider and dreams are the riding type :)

Can't wait to ride my beauty, all black and chrome... ok will stop or Musafir will get J and then will be tough life ;)

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Mythical Tree

Ahhh found an old piece this morning that I had written, brought up some memories, so here goes...

This can't be happening
not all over again
Have to stop pretending
that I can face it again
It's all just a mirage
a trick of the mind
The truth's its all gone
the caravan moved on
But the search is still on
for that mythical tree.

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This week in the life of Freya...

Just feel like writing... but then no idea as to what... ok let me tell u what I'hv been upto this week.

The weekend saw me being lazy, sleeping loads, lunch at Mom's, meeting some friends and sleeping some more. Ajay left Delhi to head back to Gandhidham... Hope he finds what he looking for, there...
Oh saw two movies too... Monster-in-law - sad it was, and A lot like love - pathetic, supposed to be the movie Hum Tum is based on but Hum Tum is too good and my Fav and this was... well, pathetic...

Monday - Sam got back from Ladhakh on Sunday and I spoke to him Monday morning. He was gone for almost a month. Hmmm he was missed :( Its good to have him back though he's lost some weight. Rest of Monday was the usual, woke up late, rushed head back, routine work with loads of audits. Went home had Monaco and Baked beans for dinner (yummy) and this time slept early as had to wake up early.

Tuesday - The usual. Alarm rang and I kept snoozing for 3 hours, woke up finally at 9. Just gave in to sleep. Was I guess a good Idea. Spent the day feeling guilty about sleeping extra and not studying. Had to make a presentation for the presentation workshop, so got to office and quickly got to work creating it. Did it on Bullets and Its History. Was super, hadn't known so much. Now am full Bullet History Pro... ;-) The guys at office were like 'as expected of u' but enjoyed the old bullet ad clip I ran and the presentation. Super stuff wonlee...
The rest normal, got home and actually slept.

Wednesday - Saw me wake up early after quite sometime. Up at 6:30 and went jogging. Hardly jogged, its been ages or atleast felt like it and my legs were killing me so returned in 15min with milk for coffee. Met newspaper boy too and made deal for paper delivery everyday. Made breakfast, had bath and sat down to study while eating. Read only one chapter but then what the heck... still was better than nothing. Off to office after that. Went to meet the boys after work at Opus... super fun it was to meet them all after quite some time. Met Samir and he didn't recognise me and Vodka (full in form) tells him in kanada hitting on me is of no use. Had a good laugh. So true it was after all :)Got back home about 11 and went off to bed.

Thursday - Thats today !!!! Woke up early, didn't go jogging and my newspaper boy turned up with man too and caught me in my skimpy nightwear so had to talk to him through crack in the door. Hope he understood all the instructions. Made breakfast, cursed my coffee filter as its too slow on the filteration, hence had to have instant coffee. Studied a chapter again but am feeling bit guilty as it was a very short one. Got to office early at 9:00 by bike, traffic was painful. Played at bit of games, now am sitting and typing this out... will stop this and go have Horlicks after which will do some work as am leaving office at 2pm. Have got pick up Sam then meet Muthu and see a Machismo for sale. Am fultu excited, its a good deal, if all goes well will sson be pround owner of Faakira... have waited long for her :) but then if u bring in the sautan first have to have loved the first enough to hold the peace ;-)

Ok am off now... Atta boy...

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